CHAPTER 38




In the office, Rick had sprawled across the couch as usual, crossing one leg over the other.

He had even taken the ball away from Billy and was now lazily rolling it between his palms, as though it helped him concentrate.

Billy was silent for a while, but eventually couldn’t hold back anymore:

“And still,” he drawled as casually as if nothing was wrong, “what’s the point of all this?”

Aaron lifted his tired gaze from the laptop.

“Of what?” he asked.

“Well, this whole case,” Billy explained. “We’ve found so much, but I still don’t understand where exactly all of it is leading.”

Lake gave the screen one last sweep with his eyes, as though putting a full stop to his thoughts, then carefully closed the laptop and looked at both of them.

“Let’s break it down point by point: what we have and what we need to check first.”
“We have a beat-up van with a taped-over mirror,” Hong quickly glanced at the photograph lying on the desk. “Rick did a good job today. He photographed the license plate and the scratches. We have pictures from every angle.”

“We have copies of the pages from the vehicle log,” Rick added, twisting his wrist and tossing the ball into the air.

He caught it neatly.

“But there are no entries for this van. So it looks like we wasted half the day on it for nothing.”

“Not for nothing,” Aaron said calmly.

Rick raised a skeptical eyebrow.

“Even if we didn’t find anything?”

“We found something that shouldn’t be there.”

Aaron glanced briefly at the wall clock.

“All right,” he continued. “We’ll leave this until tomorrow.”

Billy immediately perked up:

“Tomorrow I can run the owners through the supplier database and call some people I know at the garages. Maybe someone’s seen it in the last month.”

“Good,” Lake nodded. “While you’re at it, check the registration history, repairs, and previous owners by VIN. Everything you can find.”

He shifted his gaze to the stack of photographs, took the top one, examined it carefully, and put it back.

“I’ll handle all the photos and video footage. And I’ll go through the street-camera recordings from the night of that fight again.”

He was silent for a moment, then looked at Rick.

“Parker, you with me?”

Thud.

“I…” Rick hesitated for a moment. “Yeah. Of course.”

He squeezed the ball in his palm.

“I’d like to go over the lake material again. Start from the beginning. Maybe we missed something. You okay with that?”

“Sure.”

Rick nodded, trying to focus on the ball.

“Wonderful.”

It came out a little more brightly than he had intended.

Aaron’s gaze lingered on him.

Rick noticed exactly where he was looking — the greenish mark near his cheekbone, almost completely faded over the past few days. Then his attention moved lower, to the similar mark on his neck.

“I can’t shake that King charity event,” Lake said a little more quietly.

Billy leaned against the desk. He rolled the pen lying on top of the documents between his fingers.

“What can we actually check on him?”

“Documents, contracts, payments?” Rick suggested.

“I’m interested in the payments.”

“Then,” Billy turned his gaze toward him, “what exactly are we looking for?”

Aaron thought for a moment.

“Everything connected to the event itself. Who paid, whom, and for what. Contracts with contractors, donations, organizers’ accounts. Whatever we already have access to.”

Rick thought for a moment.

“Can’t we just look at his bank accounts?”

“No. First we need to get access to the banking records.”

Billy frowned.

“Do we have grounds to request them?”

Lake shook his head.

“Not enough yet.”

Rick set the ball aside.

“Yet.”

Billy let out a low whistle.

“Jesus, we’re actually digging into the mayor. Holy shit… For real?” He lowered his voice to almost a whisper. “Not just for show?”

“For real,” Aaron replied calmly.

“It’d be great if we could just go ask him ourselves,” Rick drawled lazily. “You know, politely: ‘Excuse me, Mr. King, could you tell us where you were ten years ago in November? And what you were doing last month when a bunch of junkies were fighting in an alley? Oh, right, and could you show us your bank statement?’”

“You forgot the ‘please,’” Billy added.

“‘Please.’”

Billy snorted, and Rick couldn’t help laughing himself.

The corner of Aaron’s mouth twitched almost imperceptibly. He leaned back in his chair.

“If he realizes we’re digging into him, the conversation will be over before it starts.”

Billy folded his arms across his chest and turned toward Rick.

“Yeah… After what happened a week ago, I wouldn’t rush into that option either.”

“You mean Fox?” Rick asked.

Hong nodded.
“You were almost killed, a detective was wounded. And now we’re digging into the mayor too.”

Silence hung for a moment.

“If it turns out to be as serious as we think,” Lake began, “we’ll only take him with a warrant and SWAT backing us up. But first we need solid evidence.”

Rick and Billy exchanged a glance.

“And the fewer people who know about this, the better,” Aaron added. “Until we have evidence, any leak could ruin everything.”

“Even if it’s someone from our own department?” Hong asked.

“Especially if it’s someone from our own department,” Lake replied calmly. “We don’t know who we can trust yet.”

Billy frowned.

“So, no one at all?”

“I can trust only the two of you completely,” Aaron said. “That’s why no one else should know what we discuss here.”

Billy slapped a palm against his thigh, as if putting a period at the end of the conversation:

“All right, I understand, Detective. Then tomorrow evening we check out Cooper’s lead?”

Lake said nothing. Rick watched him carefully.

“Still on?” he asked seriously.

Aaron sat silently for several seconds, his fingers interlaced on the desk. Then he released them and gave a short nod.

Billy exhaled and began gathering his papers from the desk.

“Great, then tomorrow everything gets decided.”

He gathered several sheets and stacked them neatly, but for some reason didn’t hurry to get up.

Rick was about to ask if there was anything else when he noticed Billy suddenly staring at one spot. He bit his lower lip slightly, as though trying to decide whether to say something, then looked at them.

“I wanted… I wanted to ask you something. Find out…” He shifted in his seat, not knowing what to do with his hands, and nervously began worrying the edge of one of the papers.

An awkward pause followed.

“Ask,” Lake said calmly.

Billy scratched the back of his head.

“It’s just… well… you remember Christmas is this weekend…” he began slowly. Then he took a deep breath and spoke faster than he had intended: “My grandmother and Julie have a Christmas dinner every year. She says Christmas is a family holiday, and… I thought that… well… you’re practically family.”

He stopped, as though only now hearing his own words.

Lake raised an eyebrow slightly but said nothing.

Rick felt warmth rush to his cheeks and fixed his gaze on the ball. It really did sound awkward. So awkward that now even he found it difficult to look at Aaron.

“I mean… you’re both like my second family!” Billy blurted out, turning completely red. “I just wanted to invite you to dinner. In the evening, at our place. Grandma cooks really well, Renata will be there too… That’s it.”

He was quiet for a moment, then added more softly:

“I won’t be offended if you already have plans. I just thought… maybe you’d want to. You know… spend some time together.”

Rick didn’t immediately understand why he suddenly stopped hearing the hum of the old heater and the occasional voices from the hallway.

A completely different picture appeared before his eyes.

Someone else’s kitchen. Warm light above the table, a fogged-up window, the smell of something hot and spicy. Plates, cups, napkins on the table, some kind of Christmas nonsense someone had put between the dishes for no particular reason.

People talking over one another. Someone laughing. Someone arguing about some trivial thing, taking their side far too seriously. Someone reaching across the table for sugar, someone pouring coffee into an already cold cup.

Nothing special.

Just an evening. Just people who were happy to be together.

Rick lingered in that picture for a moment, not even noticing that he had stopped listening to Billy. And then, for some reason, he imagined that he wasn’t sitting there alone.

Aaron was beside him.

And suddenly he was back in the office. The hum of the heater returned, and the papers, laptop, and ball in his hand were before him again.

“Together, huh…” he repeated quietly, more to himself than to Billy.

Only then did Rick look up at Aaron.

Aaron had been watching him the whole time.

“What do you say, Detective?”

Lake was silent for a little longer, then shifted his gaze to Billy.

“What time?” he asked calmly.

“Seven. So… you’ll come? Right?”

“We’ll come,” Lake answered shortly and already reached for another folder.

Billy’s face immediately lit up.

“I’m so glad!” he said with relief, rising from the chair.

He quickly put on his jacket and, already holding the door handle, turned around.

“Julie’s going to be so happy! She and Grandma have wanted to meet you for ages!”

He almost shouted the last words from the hallway before disappearing through the door.

The door closed softly, leaving the two of them alone in the office.

Rick leaned back against the couch and slowly exhaled. As though he were releasing something that had been lodged in his chest. For the first time in a long while, there was no tightness inside him.

Silence settled between them, and it felt good to be in it.

He caught himself thinking that this was exactly the kind of silence he had always been looking for. No unnecessary words, no need to prove anything. He simply wanted to stay in it.

Rick looked at Aaron again.

With one hand, Aaron held a stack of papers steady while making notes with the other.

A completely ordinary scene.

And yet, for some reason, Rick lingered on it longer than he intended.

“It’s been a long day,” Aaron said calmly without looking up from the papers. “If you’re tired, you can go home too.”

Rick finally set the ball aside and made himself comfortable on the couch.

“I don’t want to,” he replied a little more quietly.

“All right. But you don’t have to sit here until night.”

For a second, it seemed to him that there was something more in those words than simple concern.

Care?

He tilted his head to the side.

Billy’s earlier words echoed inside him:

Your savior.

“My…”

Rick grew embarrassed, as though he had caught himself thinking something completely indecent.

And the strangest part was that he liked the thought.

He didn’t even notice that he had been watching him this whole time.

His attention involuntarily caught on the most ordinary details: the way Aaron frowned slightly as he read what he had written, the way he tucked a stray strand of hair behind his ear, the way he breathed calmly and deeply.

Rick liked simply looking at him. Simply being near him.

Strange. Something unfamiliar stirred inside him.

He had never felt anything like it before.

Suddenly, he realized that Hong’s invitation wasn’t such a bad idea.

A family dinner. Homemade food…

Rick couldn’t remember the last time he had eaten a proper home-cooked meal instead of some ready-made food from the nearest store around the corner.

And did Aaron eat?

If not, it really would be nice to eat together.

For some reason, he imagined a morning they might share. A sleepy Aaron in the kitchen, two mugs in his hands. An argument over some trivial thing that they would both forget five minutes later. Then work, an ordinary day, coming home.

Nothing special.

Just an ordinary life.

With him…

Thud.

Rick froze as though he had been scalded.

His breath caught, and his heart, missing a beat, suddenly began pounding wildly somewhere in his throat. The skin of his face instantly grew hot.

As though sensing the stare burning into him, Lake looked at him.

“What?” he asked calmly, tilting his head slightly to the side.

A strand of hair had slipped from behind his ear and fallen softly against his cheekbone. Such a tiny thing, but it sent a jolt through Rick like electricity. He swallowed.

“Nothing,” he breathed too quickly. His voice betrayed him, breaking into a rasp.

Aaron drew his brows together.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

Rick didn’t answer. He immediately lowered his head, hiding his eyes behind his bangs. His fingers found the edge of his shirt and clenched the fabric, crumpling it until it hurt.

“What the hell was I just thinking?!”

His cheeks burned even hotter. He touched his face, as though hoping to cool it down. But his heart was pounding so hard it felt as though it might burst out of his chest.

“No… this can’t be. I can’t want…”

The longer he tried to push the thought away, the clearer something else became.

“What if it’s true?”

Then everything really did fall into place.

Rick realized he was barely breathing. His lips trembled. He wanted to say something, anything, but his tongue seemed to have stopped obeying him. He looked at Aaron again and felt his pulse lose its rhythm, his mouth go dry, his skin burning hotter and hotter.

Aaron noticed his strange behavior and set his pen aside.

“Rick?”

But Rick didn’t answer.

Aaron straightened slightly in his chair, keeping his eyes on him.

“Are you all right?” he repeated.

Rick was afraid to even blink unnecessarily.

“I’m fine,” he barely breathed.

The revelation that had crashed over him a second ago was still buzzing inside him.

“You look kind of strange.”

Rick lowered his gaze, unable to withstand the concern in Aaron’s eyes.

“I just…” He faltered, unable to come up with anything to finish the sentence.

When suddenly Aaron slowly rose from behind the desk.

Everything inside Rick stopped.

Lake took a step toward him.
Then another.

“For fuck’s sake, Aaron… don’t come closer! Please, not now…”

Every step he took sent another jolt through Rick’s chest, and each time it became harder for him to draw a normal breath.

He couldn’t move. He could only watch him approach. The warm light of the lamp slid along the line of his shoulders, caught his profile, and made something inside Rick ache painfully tight.

Aaron lowered himself beside him — quietly, almost soundlessly. The couch sank slightly beneath his weight, the fabric pulling taut.

He reached out and gently touched Rick’s forehead. For the first time since they had intertwined their fingers.

“What… are you doing?” Rick wanted to ask, but the words wouldn’t come. His mind seemed to have dissolved into white noise.

A wave of heat immediately swept over his skin, and Rick flinched almost imperceptibly.

“Are you sick?” Aaron asked quietly, frowning slightly.

There was such genuine concern in his voice that Rick only felt worse.

He wanted to make a joke, but there was a lump in his chest making it difficult to breathe properly.

“Am I sick? You’re actually asking?! You’re the reason I’m sick! You’re the reason I’m burning!” The thought raced through his mind like a mad whirlwind, but aloud he only rasped:

“I… I’m fine.”

Aaron frowned even more deeply. A pronounced crease appeared between his brows. He touched Rick’s forehead again, this time more insistently. His fingers gently moved a curly strand of hair aside, lingering at his temple.

A faint tremor ran through Rick’s body at the movement. He clenched his fingers, trying to hide it, but Aaron noticed anyway.

“You’re burning up,” he said quietly, studying his face again. “And your eyes are… unusually bright.”

Rick met his gaze and at that very moment felt the whole world narrow down to those gray-blue eyes in front of him. Attentive and so… familiar.

Thud.

For a moment, everything else disappeared — the walls, the light, the sounds. There was only his Aaron, their closeness, and his own heart, which refused to calm down.

“I should’ve given you the car keys while I was with Young. You probably got too cold waiting.”

Rick blinked.

Swallowing with difficulty, he gently removed Aaron’s hand from his forehead.

“I’m fine, really… just tired,” he said almost in a whisper, but even he could hear what his voice
sounded like.

He lowered his eyes. Aaron sat beside him for a little while longer, studying his face, then finally straightened.

“Stay here,” he said in the same even, almost gentle tone. “I’ll be right back.”

He stood, turned, and left the office, leaving behind a faint scent of green tea and something fresh.

The door remained open, and for a long time Rick could still hear his measured footsteps echoing through the empty corridor.

He slowly exhaled, trying desperately to pull himself together, but it wasn’t working very well. His palm moved automatically over his face, lingering against his overheated skin.

“Damn…” he whispered almost soundlessly.

Rick leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees and interlacing his cold, trembling fingers. It took him a moment to realize that his hands were actually shaking.

Memories came flooding back one after another.

The way Aaron had gently taken his face in the alley, helping him through a panic attack.

The way he had pulled him against his chest in the cramped, stuffy closet, helping him through the suffocating attack.

The way he had stayed beside him at the dance, not letting fear take over. If Aaron hadn’t been there that night, Rick might not have survived.

He remembered the way Aaron’s warm, steady hands had treated the scratches on his face and neck, while Rick himself had wiped the blood from Aaron’s chest and stomach with trembling fingers, trying not to look him in the eyes.

The way, just a couple of hours ago, Aaron had silently turned on the seat heaters.

Such little things.

And for some reason, those were exactly what made his chest feel especially tight. Warmth spread through him, and his heart clenched painfully.

Why did his care hurt so much?

Rick had no answer. He only felt something hot and completely unfamiliar rising from somewhere deep inside him. Unstoppable. It spread through his body, leaving no room for any other thought.

He could hear his breathing faltering, each new breath becoming shorter than the last. He wanted to laugh, hide, and simply… stay near him all at once.

Rick closed his eyes and clenched his fingers tighter.

He suddenly understood that it wasn’t about the touch today at all.

He had simply spent too long failing to notice how much Aaron did for him.

“How long have I been living with this?” His fingers raked nervously through his hair. “When did it all start?..”

He still had no answer to those questions. And perhaps he no longer wanted one.

Because it wasn’t about when it had started.

For too long, he had chosen other words for it. Attachment. Trust. Gratitude. The habit of having him around. Anything, as long as he didn’t have to call it what it really was.

But now, sitting in the half-dark office and listening to Aaron’s quiet footsteps beyond the door, Rick suddenly realized how pointless that had been.

He had known for a long time that he couldn’t do without him.

He knew that he looked for him in every room. That the first thing he wanted was to tell him about whatever had happened during the day. That after a difficult call, all he wanted was simply to come back to him. That he felt calmer when Aaron was nearby, and somehow empty when he wasn’t. He knew that he kept coming back to him again and again, even when he could have chosen any other path.

And all this time, for some reason, he had continued telling himself that he simply liked being around him.

So stupid.

Although, if he thought about it, it had all started much earlier than he had allowed himself to admit. On a damp autumn night, when, habitually bracing himself for a blow, he heard his voice echoing off the brick walls. When a warm hand grabbed him and pulled him away. When, after learning that he didn’t want to go home, Aaron hadn’t asked a single unnecessary question, but had simply taken off his dark blue bomber jacket and draped it over his shoulders.

Then there had been the bike, the speed, the sharp turn, and a warm hand resting against his arm to
keep him from falling.

So much.

Rick clenched his hands tighter, until his knuckles hurt.

He remembered.

He remembered every time Aaron had been there. Every little thing he hadn’t thought much of at the time. Every touch, every silent I’m here that somehow stayed with him far longer than the moment itself.

From somewhere down the hallway came the quiet whistle of a kettle, followed by the muffled clink of mugs.

A simple, almost domestic sound.

And for some reason, it was the final straw.

Rick closed his eyes.

Aaron appeared before him again — bent over a case, frowning at the lines on a page, absently adjusting his hair, raising an irritated eyebrow whenever Rick started talking nonsense.

Ordinary Aaron.

The same Aaron Rick kept coming back to.

And suddenly, he stopped searching for another name for it.

He drew a slow breath, but the air still caught somewhere in his chest.

The thought was so simple that it was almost frightening.

Not I’ve fallen in love.
Not I’m drawn to him.
Not I like being around him.

I love him.

Rick opened his eyes.

For the first time, he didn’t try to hide from the thought.

He lowered his head, feeling his heart pounding too loudly again, as though it wanted to break free. He dug his fingers into his own knee, trying to anchor himself to reality. He didn’t notice the door opening.

Lake returned so quietly that Rick didn’t immediately realize he was already there. In his hands was a mug, steam slowly rising from it in soft, transparent wisps.

“Here,” he said quietly, holding out the mug. “Careful. It’s hot.”

Rick looked up at him.

The world stopped.

Such a simple gesture. A mug, a little steam, a calm voice. Nothing special. But everything inside Rick tightened, as though someone had pressed directly against the place where his most precious secret now lived.

How simple.

How familiar.

And how unbearably good it felt.

He took the mug in both hands, feeling his fingers refusing to cooperate. The ceramic was hot, but Rick didn’t even flinch.

“Thank you…”

Aaron only nodded slightly, without unnecessary questions or implications, and returned to his desk.

He sat upright, as usual. Opened the folder, bent over the papers, and ran his pen along a line.

To him, it was just tea.

But Rick looked at him and thought that perhaps everything was built from moments exactly like this.

Not from grand words. Not from promises.

From someone noticing that you’re cold. From a mug silently brought to you. From a calm “careful, it’s hot,” said as though it were the most natural thing in the world.

And somehow, that was what frightened him most.

Because Rick suddenly realized that once wasn’t enough.

He wanted it to happen again.

And tomorrow.

And next week.

He wanted Aaron to keep grumbling when he stayed late, bringing him tea when he got cold, sitting across from him with his endless folders and frowning at the lines on the page.

An ordinary life.

The very one Rick hadn’t even thought about until recently.

This time, the thought didn’t burn.

It simply settled inside him — so simple and right that Rick didn’t turn away from it.

Aaron was marking something on a document, tapping his pen lightly against the edge of the paper, completely unaware that this simple gesture, along with the tea, meant far more to Rick than it should have.

Rick watched him and unexpectedly realized that he didn’t only want to receive things like this.

He wanted to put a cup of coffee in front of Aaron someday. Strong, just the way he liked it — and make it before Aaron even had a chance to ask. Wake up earlier and fuss around in the kitchen making breakfast, even if half of it ended up in the trash at first.

He quietly smiled to himself.

Cooking had never been his strong suit. But he could probably learn.

Just like so many other things.

Relationships, honestly, had never been his strong suit either. At most, a week-long fling and no-strings-attached sex.

Once, it had seemed to him that relationships involved too much responsibility and not enough air. He couldn’t imagine himself as someone who woke up beside the same person every day, argued over who had forgotten to buy milk, came home to the same place, and knew that someone was waiting there for him.

He had always found it easier not to plan beyond the next week. And now, for some reason, that was what he wanted more than anything.

And not with some stranger.

With him. With Aaron.

Rick slowly exhaled.

If he had to learn everything from scratch for him, he would try. Not perfectly, not right away, and surely with mistakes. But somehow, the thought no longer frightened him.

Quite the opposite.

He caught himself wanting not to run away from something new, but to stay and learn it together with him.

And then… maybe they really could build something of their own?

Something that belonged to both of them.

He lowered his gaze to the mug in his hands.

The tea was still hot, but his fingers were no longer cold.

The trembling quietly faded away.
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